Tuesday, August 28, 2001

personal
Not a whole lot happeneing here. Just mostly sitting around doing a whole lot of nothing.

Tuesday, August 21, 2001

personal
Ok, so I have been drinking, and I know one should not blog after one has been drinking, but I have some questions, and tomorrow I will be too shy to ask them. Here they are. So late last week, I was having a discussion with a friend of mine about life and relationships, and she said that life can't be like a John Cusack infatuation movie. My question is why not. I know people where life is a John Cusack infatuation movie, so does this mean that if you life is not like that, it never will be? Or can you life turn into something like that. I can't see any reason why life can't turn into something like that. I never thought that I would have been married by twenty-three and I never thought that I would be divorced when I was 26. I always assumed that I would be 30 by the time I met the person that I thought I would want to be with my entire life. But life didn't turn out that way. Life turned out radically different then what I had planned. Does this mean that I am done now? Did I have my chance at something approching happyness, and now I am destined to live by myself in a state where I don't have any friends for the rest of my life? Or is there a chance that I might meet someone and have that someone realize that I feel for them and things could turn around. Or maybe I will meet someone else and life will go in a direction that I have no idea about now? If anyone is reading this, let me know and I will post your responses here. I promise. If someone posts here, I swear that I will bake eclaires for my entire office on monday. But you have to post my Saturday morning so I can locate the appropriate supplies. I will even mail you some next-day so they won't get too stale. Life is just not supposed to work out this way. I had friends back in Michigan, but now I feel that I simply know people back there. I have been too long outside the scene to mean much of anything in the lives of the people I hold dear. I found a picture of my youngest sisters son while going throught some items I had, and I realized that I had seen this little person once. And it would be probably a year before I saw him again. And every time I saw him, he would not know who I was, and I would never be any sort of influance on his life or anything. Or anyone in my family for that matter. I am just not a part of that anymore. I guess this happens to people all the time, but I am just not ready for this. Maybe in a year of being down here alone I will be able to look at myself as a self-contained unit, but right now I still feel like I may have made the wrong decision. I guess it's just living in such a small community for so long, and keeping such a close group of friends that may be doing this, but I don't know anyone else who has these same experiences. I would love to here who other people are dealing with this same sort of thing.

Sunday, August 19, 2001

personal
I did the coolest thing on Friday. The Go Go's played live down at the Celebrity. It was so cool. I love the Go Go's!!! It was so cool. The stage rotates so at time, I was in the the 3rd row from the front. They rock so much. I will have to see them again if they ever tour again. Save Ferris was supposed to open, but instead some lame band 'Snapdragon' opened. But it's cool, because Save Ferris is going to play here in town on Oct 12! Must get tickets to that. Other then that, the weekend has been pretty lame. Got Bock off on Friday morning. So now I am here alone and have to make something out of myself. We'll see..

Thursday, August 16, 2001

work
Not much happeneing here. Just work, work, work...

personal
Not a whole lot going on here either. I wish I had something witty and wonderful to say, but there is nothing. Spending too many nights staying up late coding. Last 2 nights, up until 2 am. Then up at 7:30 or 8 the next morning. I am getting too old to be doing that sort of thing.

Monday, August 13, 2001

work
Got the Exabyte library working. Did a full backup saturday night and it ran without error! I am so happy.
Now I am working on a sniffer to log traffic to/from virtual hosts on a single machine. Packet sniffing is not as easy as it looks.

personal
Well, not a whole lot going on here. It looks like Jen is interested in Paul, even though he is dating someone. Oh well, I guess I will just right that on off too.
Missed the DM/Poe show on Friday, due to massive anxiety over the network backups. I was just barely cogent enough to work. There was no way I was going to go anywhere but home. Got home about 9pm Friday night, ate some dinner, took a hot bath, and then slept solidly for 12 hours. I felt pretty good on saturday tho. Managed to not get any laundry done. I should do that tonight. Went to see 'American Pie 2' on Saturday night. Funny, funny movie. If you liked the first one, you will love this one. I am going to go see 'The Others', which is supposed to be a nice ghost story. Sunday I mostly sat around. Cooked up some cookies for work. I have stuff for 2 more batches of cookies, plus some muffins. Then I am going to try something harder like eclaires or something. Should be interesting.

Friday, August 10, 2001

work
I suppose this is why it's called 'work', instead of 'not-work'....

Thursday, August 09, 2001

work
Yes, it's late. Yes, I am actually at work. No, I don't believe it either. I am on the virge of getting the new Exabyte tape library setup to do network backups, then I won't have to worry about the other stupid arkeia server. This is pretty cool. I've been here about 2.5 hours, so this is pretty exciting. I know you are all just sitting on the edges of your seats... I'm going to go have a smoke while the server does...something..
personal
So I forgot to update the blog yesterday. I have no access at home, and I didn't want to stay at work, so sue me. Some cool things happened yesterday, I guess. Went out to Cost Plus at lunch to look for some really big pillows/cushions for my apartment. I didn't find anything the size I was looking for, but they did have some papa-san chairs for $100, so I will probably go and pick one of those up. Plus I need to get some rice bowls and other dishes. Also, they had this really great butcher block island that I want to get for my kitchen. I don't have quite enough counter space, with my appliances and whatnot, but I have plenty of floorspace. Plus this island was on casters, so I could roll it into the pantry when I didn't need it.

So, to back up a little, I ended up going out there with Anne, who was actually going out to the AT&T store, but it's near there. So on the way out, she is telling me about Mike having this insane ex-girlfriend staying at his place, some ex-model/aerobics instructor. So she's telling me this and all I can say is 'Wow, you're the most understanding girlfriend I have ever met. I could never sit for something like that. It's just not right.' Then she continues about how this doesn't bother her, but later on I'm wondering if this is true, because if it really didn't bother her, would it have ever come up? Strange. But anyway, she did get me a free ticket to the Depeche Mode/Poe show on Friday night, so that is cool.

So I hung out with Bock last night, eating chinese and watching Jackie Chan movies. It's such a bummer that he is going back, but everything looks cool for him to do so. I guess he has some freelance stuff lined up so he is all set to go.

There is a new kitten hanging out around my apartment. This little golden tiger kitten. I put him at 8-10 months old, maybe as young as 6 months. Just the sweetest little kitten. I suppose he wouldn't hang around if I didn't leave food and water out, but he was so hungry last night. I don't have any room in my apartment for another cat, but I suppose I can take care of the strays as long as they stay outside. I am thinking he belongs to someone because he is very tame and also, he's declawed.

Tuesday, August 07, 2001

personal
So I was sitting on the curb last night, watching the planes go up and down my street (I live near the end of one of the runways at Sky Harbor, so planes actually do go up and down my street :), wondering what I am going to do with my life. With Bock leaving, I either can get out and actually try to meet people, or I can hibernate in my apartment and not do anything. Still haven't quite figured out what to do here. I would like to get out and meet people, but I am no good at that. I have no idea on how to go up to a woman at a bar/coffee shop/what-have-you and chat her up. What does one say? 'Hi, you don't know me from Adam, but I saw you and thought I would just start talking to you.' How do you say anything at that point that doesn't sound like a pickup line. Perhaps it's the self-confidance thing that my women-friends are always saying is attractive.

So does anyone out there have any tips for chatting up pretty women? Women, where do you like to get chatted up (bars, bookstores, coffee houses?) I think it would all be so much easier if there was just a place where people could put up little index cards that say 'Hi. I'm Scott and I like hiking, backpacking, rollerblading, reading and movies. If you like these things, call me at (xxx)555-5555'. Then everyone could just peruse the cards and call each other. Instead of trying to talk to people that you have nothing in common with, but don't know it yet.

Monday, August 06, 2001

work
I don't really know if this should fall under work, but since it happened here, here it goes.
I eat my lunch at my desk, mainly because no one asks me to go to lunch. So I am sitting at my desk reading, and someone walks in, starts to ask a question, says 'Oh, I'm sorry, your eating', then continues on with their question. Why bother apologizing for interrupting my lunch if you are going to do it anyway. Either apologize and go away, or just interrupt and be done with it. I have no patience with people anymore.
work
Managed to get a backup done on sunday. I believe that one of Fridays tapes was bad, and since I was trying to use friday's tapes, that's a bad thing. Now it appears that POP before SMTP on the mailserver isn't working. Just hacked on that so we will see what happens.

personal
Serial Experiment Scott
So now I am going to be out here all by myself. This should make for some interesting reading, if nothing else :) Hopefully I will not go insane and stay in my apartment all the time, but who knows. Sat around yesterday. Baked some cookies. Toll House goodness. Was also going to make some blueberry muffins. That's right sunshine, I can cook. That's what I find really strange. I am a pretty good guy. I am this semi-intelligent guy, I cook/bake/what-have-you, I'm at least semi-literate, I've been told I am not repulsive. So why can't I find any decent women in Tempe? (not that I was having all that much luck anywhere else, mind you). Perhaps I will post a picture for people to look at. If any intelligent, pretty women in Tempe are reading this, give me a shout. Oh well. I guess now looks like the time of great money savings for me. Since I will have no one to go out on the weekends with, I suppose I will just have to sit at home. I suppose that's not all bad. I will get to play with my cats. They have been missing me, I think. I will be able to cook more, and that's a good thing. Need to get a new Dutch Oven tho. And a Crock Pot. I will have my Sparc 20 to play with. And I will have saved some money for if NeoPlanet goes under. I suppose this is not all bad.

Sunday, August 05, 2001

work
Yes, I am working on a sunday. Still having issues with Arkeia not finding any tape in the libraries. This thing sucks ass. if anyone is reading this, and has any tips, please feel free to mail me.

personal
Well, Bock is moving back to MI in 2 weeks. That sucks, because now I won't have anyone to hang out with.
Watched 'Requim for a Dream' last night. Killer movie. Jen called me back to tell me that she couldn't go out because she had to babysit. I suppose this is reasonable. We'll see. Why is it so hard to meet people. I just want to know where all the smart, fun, pretty women in Tempe are hiding. If there are any of you reading this, please mail me..

Friday, August 03, 2001

personal
Just got email that my sparc should be shipping today. This is a Good Thing®.
work
I think I am making progress on the Arkeia backup server. Managed to get a copy of the filesystem from the defective drive to boot. This is a bonus. Hopefully get the damn thing up today.

personal
Not much here. Called Jen last night to see if she wanted to go out saturday night to dinner and a movie or something. She said she had to see and would call me back. I don't quite know where that fits. Probably won't hear from her. She didn't remember who I was. That is definatly not a good thing. Oh well.

Thursday, August 02, 2001

work
Still with the Arkeia thing. Installed a new sendmail.cf tho, and that seems to be speeding things up a bit..
personal
I am worth $1,185,818.00. Spiffy. Now if I could just find someone to buy me.
Bock got fired today, so he is going to move back east. This sucks as he is the only person I have to do anything with. Looks like life is going to get a lot more boring sooner then I thought. I should be happy for him, I guess. He really wanted to go back home, but I suppose I really wanted him to stick around. Oh well.

Wednesday, August 01, 2001

work
Still fighting with Arkeia. Still wondering why I am still working here. People don't listen to anything I have to say.

personal
Bought a couple of new cd's yesterday. Crystal Method 'Tweekend' and Utah Saints 'Two'. Pretty cool. Crystal Method is going to be in town on Sept 28th.. Might have to treat myself to an early bday..
work
Wow.. Spending a couple of nights here setting up Arkeia after the main IDE crapped. Arkeia is a bitch. Then Brad says 'Ever since you took over things seem to be breaking....' Is smacking a superior a fireable offence? Then everyone in the company decides to grill me about the stupid game area Mike and Pablo set up. Fucking moronic..

personal
Not much here, in a wierd way. Moved into my new place. All good. Nice place and whatnot.
Bought a Sparc 20 off E-Bay. Waiting for that to show up here. Will be nifty to play with, once I get a monitor for it. Have a keyboard on the way. Reminds me I need to burn those solaris cds..
Realized there is never going to be anything with Anne. That sucks. Why can't I find someone like her. Pretty, smart, fun, caring, but also into me. I am thinking of calling Jen this weekend to see if she wants to get dinner and a movie or something. I can't think of anything more exciting. That's lame...